i am who i am;

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hear my heart;

i cringe every time you cut yourself down
you hide your pain like it doesn't count
so when i hear you laugh are you cryin' deep inside
'cause you fall below the standards in your mind
to Him you matter more than you'll ever know
so let the Lord love you

we may search for truth, but we listen more to lies
play them over and over in our minds
till we're left with some distorted point of view
that cripples who we are and all we do there are times you've gotta fight for all you're worth
stand up to the voices from the past
so let the Lord love you

you gotta let the Lord love you

Without no words;

sweet sweet memories of mine;

April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007

Sunday, August 26, 2007 -

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sighing would be an understatement to the
immance sense of pain i feel inside
i'm okay?
definetly not.
but i can't seem to dispatch this negative emotion.
this is bad.
prelims are coming.
i don't want to study out of obligation.
i don't want to study because someboby wants me to study.
Even more, i don't want to study because of the guilt my teachers put upon me.
personally, i feel it's all nonsense.
i'll study because i just want to.
right now, i need someone to confide in.
someone i can trust.

God's moulding me again.
He's brought me yet into another wilderness.
but will i have the strength to keep holding on
all the rights have becomed wrongs
my world's turned upside down, inside out
i need to keep believing, i want to keep believing.
that dumb ass devil keeps placing stupid thoughts in my head.
He keeps questioning my faith.
and sometimes i stumble.
i question God's plan.
but there's always this still small voice that reassures me,
tells me that everything is under control,
that He has the upper hand,
in due time, everything will fall into place.
then the thought comes.
how long would i have to wait?
are you sure that if you wait, everything will be alright?
And i know i have to keep believing, hoping and praying even more.

God, please instill in me that child-like faith.
to believe that your plans are so much higher then my circumstances.
i will not temper with the commitments that i've made.
i will trust in you.
i don't want to pretend that i'm alright, and run away from my problems.
God please make my path straight.
hold my hand every single step of the way and
constantly remind me that there is always the light at the end of the tunnel.
God, words alone cannot describe how much i really need you.
because i really do.

simply simplicity 7:52 AM

i am who i am;

hear my heart;

friends i hold dear;

Without no words;

sweet sweet memories of mine;

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