Saturday, June 30, 2007 -

you're greatness has no boundaries, my heart is filled with praise( :

i really really feel the urge to blog.
LOL it's 2am in the morning.
HEEHEE youth day.
LOL. how much of a youth am i? HAHA
okayy. let's just say i'm young at heart=))
HEEHEE. okayy. maybe i am young.

LOL. getting to more serious matters

i feel kinda special this week=)
i don't know how to explain but God has been really good lah
Great till no words can describe.
i've been so so so blessed by him lah
i mean He just knows my heart.
i don't even have to say it out and he knows
God's really wonderful
He heals you when you least expects it.when you feel like you're useless,
He never fails to make you feel useful.
i love God lah.
HE'S REALLY GREAT((:

today's one good example.
the pastor used me to lay hands on the people whom he couldn't.
(you get what i mean.)
i was like. why out of so many people catching, you ask me?
even when there's another catcher's so near-by you?
i didn't realise it there and then,
but God was reminding me that i din have to be some super annointed person,
to lay hands on other people, and see them fall under the power of God.
i am useful, not useless.
just like every christian has his or her own purposes and ministry((:
at the end of the whole thing, the pastor gave my one of his books, to 'thank' me.
i was stunned lah.
i was thinking, why out of so many people who were catching? you
chose to give the book to me?
why me?
that brought me to remember what happened during last week's service.
it made me realize,
EH! I'M NOT INVISIBLE AFTER ALL.=))
heehee.
God is just great lah
everything's falling nicely into place.
i'm re-finding( if there's even such a word) that first love.
where nothing else really mattered except what God's opinion was.
NO way am i going to let the evil one take that away from me again.
because i now know how EVER EVER important His presence, the knowing that He's watching over you, that His grace is covering you, is to me
it's like when God's the center, everything else fits perfectly.
just like jigsaw puzzles.
to sum it all up with 3 words,
I LOVE GOD

my aching all over from all that catching=)
but it's worth it

God, you're just so wonderful((:

simply simplicity 10:50 AM

Friday, June 29, 2007 -

i'm good to go :

HOHOHO

this week if i were to sum it up, would be
"full of surprises".

despite the very hectic, busy and stressful school days,
i actually found the time to spend with God((:

God really is a wonderful God, the more time you spend with him,
the closer your relationship get and in turn, his plans for you becomes so much clearer.
indeed God is good((:
He's bless me endlessly this week, and in very obvious ways in fact(:
i really thank God for those that have been real blessings to my life.
these people don't come by everyday.

(i have scattered train of thoughts so i'm writing whatever comes to mind)

went for [full flame gospel] today.
i expected to get something out of this course, but i never expected that something to
be so so so big. it really blew me off my feet!
thanks Pj, that was what i really really needed. assurance(:
i've been struggling with a lot of stuff lately.
it's funny coz at the back of my head, i know that God loves me for just the way i am.
but i always question that unconditional love that He gives.
am i really deserving of his love?
full flame is really good lah
today's message was pretty clear.
the matchless message(:

only when you first learn to love yourself, only then can you love others
when you love, do you really love, or are you just going through the motions?
when you welcome people into the house of God, are you doing it for the sake of doing it?
because even shop keepers are able to do that to attract business.
so what sets you apart from the shop keepers, christians?
are you living up to your calling that God has given you?

-ILOVEMYGOD
no words can explain or describe the joy in my heart

simply simplicity 8:41 AM

Saturday, June 23, 2007 -

WHEEEEE :

hello all
as yall would have guessed, yesterday was saturday((:
HEEHEE
well. service was great, but alter call was awesome((:
i dont know why, but i would always be the last ones to be prayed for,
or not at all. like you know, always looked pass.
but then it hit me.
you dont have to have someone pray for you to experience break thru.
cause i sure did
at the alter call, i was reminded of the many books of sermon, copied from the outline.
BOY that was years ago. 2 years i think.
i used to copy down whatever was taught, read the bible ever so faithfully.
but now, come to think of it, i haven really done the copying and bible reading has become sporadic.
God was reminding me, taking me back to my first love, when nothing else mattered.
only him.
only him can fufill
then i felt a sharp pang.
like you know heart ache?
the devil knows my weakness.
HAHAH
but too bad i now know that you're using it against me
so i wont get affected by it
we had to let go of everything, and surrender it to God.
two hands.
the first was easy. but the second wasn't
the future.
i knew i had too but so many things were holding me back.
it was so so so so so hard if you know what i mean
it's easy to say but doing it was hard
but now, God has the driver seat in my life =)

LOVE

God you know me inside out.i'm sorry for those times.
i want to love you all over again and never let go
i'm clinging on to your love/grace/mercy/strength/
i'm clinging on to you

simply simplicity 9:13 PM

Monday, June 18, 2007 -

you don''t always get what you want :

why is it when you want something so much, it never happens, you never get it?
and those people who don't expect it, always gets it.
maybe i should stop digging too much into things.
maybe i should stop thinking too much.

well. i guess things are getting better.
for the very few who know, the problem's been resolved.
but i still feel that there's something missing.

i guess you'll never know huh?

ohwells. i gtg. homework calls.
but i'm lazy.

the image of you keeps getting stuck in my head.
i wish you would disappear, so i can forget all about you, and start all over again.
you let me down, time and time again.

simply simplicity 11:51 PM

Wednesday, June 13, 2007 -

did you make it this way? :

i feel like as though i made myself ride on a roller coaster with many many rises and drops.
nobody forced me to, nobody dared me to.
i just got on board it myself.

(if you get what i'm driving at.)

boy are my days getting tougher.
but it feels as if i made it tougher myself,
creating unecessary waves in my life.
talk about making my life more 'interesting'.

don't ask me to expain, because i myself can't either.
what's wrong with me?
to tell you the truth, i don't know either
i'm letting the days pass, not making them count,
staring aimlessly into space.
maybe it's time to give up,
to give up waiting.
you should to.
maybe i'm relying too much on my own strength.
it's alway been a weakness the leaches on me, like a parasite.
leaders camp made me question.
how? how do i let go and let God?
it's so easy to say but do i put it into action.
do i really have the faith to let God's will be done in my life and not mine?
or do i only rely on him in bad times and in the good times He's far from near.

when i encourage people,
were those encouragements actually meant for me?

ironic.

why am i running away from God?

simply simplicity 9:59 AM

Sunday, June 3, 2007 -