Monday, August 27, 2007 -

one step closer to you. :

You work hard, seeking success. You are self-sufficient and in spite of all the trials and tribulations that have beset you in the past you carry on regardless..
You are one to be admired because you pursue your objectives single-mindedly and with initiative. You know that you can 'do it' and what is more, you will - without necessarily being dependent upon the goodwill of others.
Your situation is such that at this time it is essential that you resolve your inherent problems immediately. You are not listening nor taking heed from your many friends and advisers, all of which believe it or not, 'wish you well'. Most of your colleagues feel that your attitude is out of context - an attitude of recklessness and desperation.
It is imperative that some solution be found, but whatever you do, think before you act.
You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship.
You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.
As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show.
It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd.
Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.You are afraid that you may not be able to realise or achieve your hopes and desires and so you insist that people should accept you as you are and appreciate your rights to anything that you aspire to.


omg.this is so me.
haha.
i'm bored and need entertainment=(
try this:http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/
(:

simply simplicity 4:18 AM

Sunday, August 26, 2007 -

:

sighing would be an understatement to the
immance sense of pain i feel inside
i'm okay?
definetly not.
but i can't seem to dispatch this negative emotion.
this is bad.
prelims are coming.
i don't want to study out of obligation.
i don't want to study because someboby wants me to study.
Even more, i don't want to study because of the guilt my teachers put upon me.
personally, i feel it's all nonsense.
i'll study because i just want to.
right now, i need someone to confide in.
someone i can trust.

God's moulding me again.
He's brought me yet into another wilderness.
but will i have the strength to keep holding on
all the rights have becomed wrongs
my world's turned upside down, inside out
i need to keep believing, i want to keep believing.
that dumb ass devil keeps placing stupid thoughts in my head.
He keeps questioning my faith.
and sometimes i stumble.
i question God's plan.
but there's always this still small voice that reassures me,
tells me that everything is under control,
that He has the upper hand,
in due time, everything will fall into place.
then the thought comes.
how long would i have to wait?
are you sure that if you wait, everything will be alright?
And i know i have to keep believing, hoping and praying even more.

God, please instill in me that child-like faith.
to believe that your plans are so much higher then my circumstances.
i will not temper with the commitments that i've made.
i will trust in you.
i don't want to pretend that i'm alright, and run away from my problems.
God please make my path straight.
hold my hand every single step of the way and
constantly remind me that there is always the light at the end of the tunnel.
God, words alone cannot describe how much i really need you.
because i really do.

simply simplicity 7:52 AM

Thursday, August 23, 2007 -

i need you. :

i screwed up both practicals menn.
chemistry was much more predictable.
Q.A and titration.didn't know how to design the experiment tho =/
haha. bio was a bit more interesting.
heehee. tested what was supposedly to be samples of urine to deduce what kind of illness
the person had.
for a moment i felt like some forensic scientist of some sort.
lol
the second question was difficult tho.
labelled the parts of the kai lan any o how.
lol. wrote nonsense for the difference btw the ginger and the kai lan too
haha. ohwells. i'll trust God((:


because human strength alone is insufficient
God, you don't know how much i need you.

simply simplicity 2:37 AM

Monday, August 20, 2007 -

:

second time in a day, boy must i be bored.
haha.
i think i'm wasting time.
tmr's prelim chemistry practical.
i'm suppose to go study with jy and rach,
but i doubt i'll be
able to go=(
i'm also supposed to go visit jeremy with cord and sarah,
but i doubt i'll be able to go.

i'm so screwed.
i can't sense the urgency of the hour.
i'm just wasting the time away.
computer's a big distraction.
so i'll be away on a haitus from blogging, msn-ing, etc etc
checking of email is a must tho.

ohyes.
21th august
happy birthday crystal, janell,amanda teo and sherron(:

simply simplicity 11:18 PM

-

:

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I am saved"
I'm whispering "I was lost!"
That is why I chose this way.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumbled and
need someone to be my guide.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak and
pray for strength to carry on.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed and
cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
my flaws are too visible but
God believes I'm worth it.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartaches
which is why I seek His name.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority.
I only know I'm loved

simply simplicity 11:17 PM

Saturday, August 18, 2007 -

time's slowly slipping out of my fingers :

today was yet another day wasted.
din really get to study.
did only Q.A. for this coming practical, only to find out
that they would give us the stupid facts, so we don't have to memorise at all
hurr.
anyways,
i enjoyed the company really((:
met jy at her school, then it was donuts.
it was good, heehee. we had 3 donuts each for our lunch.
lol
call us pigs menn.
then it was off the her house where i studied.
then off to meet andrea to C.H.C
joyce meyer was speaking. she's GOOD.
really good.
she spoke about seizing the opportunity.
really good really.
after the service went to meet joeyee, meryl and huat at bugis,
then we trained down to city hall to watch the fire works
nice(:
then to eat.
and now i'm home.


oh. during the service, something really was thought provoking.
she said :
"going to church does not make you a christian. just like going to the garage does not make you a car"

throughout her service, she made a lot of interesting comments.
she made really great illustrations too.
her sermon's animated but puts across a very simple message that pierces through your heart.
she's one great and awesome woman, chasing feverently the heart of God. i really admire her.


Don't try to fit into a chair that you're already in

simply simplicity 9:30 AM

Tuesday, August 14, 2007 -

please :

AHHH.
T-p offered me a place.
so how now God?
remember our pact?
looks like it's not in your plans for me huh?
should i accept? should i not?
ahhhhhahhhh
i really don't know
but with my results now, i think i may need it.
i wouldn't want to end up with some course that i don't want=(
ahhhahhh
i really don't know.
help=(


this i pray,
this i seek.
that you show me the plans you have for me

simply simplicity 2:22 AM

Friday, August 10, 2007 -

smiles all around( :

thursday.
went to suntec to watch the fireworks.
gave up half way.
saw abit then i left to get donuts are donut factory.
YAY!i manage to get one dozen of them. heehee(:
(they're all gone now)
oh. something funny happened on the way home.
while walking to the bus stop, this T_p guy said 'excuse me'
coz he was trying to catch the bus upfront.
so i moved aside, stopped there for a while.
then i continued to walk.
SUDDDENLY, this rat( i think, coz it was rather dark) ran across the footpath
oh my. can you imagine, if i din stop back then, the rat would have run over my leg.
i wouldn't want that to happen.




friday

Zone one fun day at sentosa.
heehee.
FUN FUN!
got to know even more people better.
laughs.



games
captians ball with weird stuff like peeled oranges, eggs,
lettuce, bananas etc.
then splash. which turned out to be a rather funny game.
i mean for joeyee and i lah
then ultimate frisbe with i cannot catch at all.
then a friendly volleyball game.
the last game, capture the flag.
well we lost. coz even before we could start the game, 2 of our flags were captured
tsktsk.
but i think we managed to protect it for long(:
while the other half of the zone played, we went to slack in the sea,
buried lim jun in the sand. -laughs.
he kept breathing so hard, the sand around the chest area kept cracking.
vann asked him to stop breathing. -laughs.
showering was funny.
we din have soap or shampoo. so we resorted to borrowing from other people.
thank God they were nice people.
so we went to vivo feeling nice and clean(:
but we made the guys wait for long.
haha.
full flame-d at night.
they all laughed at me for being so red=(
tsktsk.sighs.
ohyes. i'm terribly burnt. so much for wanting to sun tan.
lol. my red red. like lobster=((
very painful but itchy. when you want to scratch it, it becomes pain.
was really really tired.
then home(:

saturday

discipleship meeting with cord, which wasn't really a discipleship meeting.
laughs.
service.
then dinnered. the studied with joeyee and yiren.
haha. not really fruitful tho.
i'm tired and terribly burnt.
someone save me=(
i was suddenly reminded of 13th being the day we get back 'o' level chinese results
as well as DPA.
plus something i can't really remember.
i'm scared. but you know what, no matter what happens, i'm going to trust go, whatever the results(: coz i know that He has a perfect plan for me.

alrights. i'm off to lala land.
tired. the burn kept me awake last night=(

-sighs. i wish you where more aware and more caring.
haha. people just ain't satisified with life are they?
everyday i'm still trying to let go and let God.

simply simplicity 6:11 PM

Thursday, August 9, 2007 -

Thanks for the memories( :

080807
was really a day of nostalgia, tears and even more tears
2nd students' council investiture, step up/step down
to all the friendships made,
i really thank God for placing so many awesome people
in my life.
really, thanks to everyone.
i'm really going to treasure the slightly more than 2 months in KC i have left.
because i'm sure all these friendships are going to carry me through.
manda, andrea,
ex-cos..
seniors.. how could i ever have gotten through prefects/council, without them
especially during the sec 3 period.
boy were those my hardest days. but they were there(:
juniors that never fail to smile when you meet them.
although we're friendly and all, we know where to draw the line.
etc etc etc((:

letting go sure is hard.



God, i thank you for everything.
For having such a wonderful and perfect plan for me
i pray that in the remaining days i have left at KC,
i'll make the best out of it.
God i can never thank you enough.
(:
iloveyou

simply simplicity 7:36 AM

Monday, August 6, 2007 -

FRIENDS :

simply simplicity 4:49 AM

Saturday, August 4, 2007 -

i could search for all eternity long and find that there is none like you :

Maybe i'm just wasting my time.
when i say i don't like___
i think it's because i feel like i'm wasting my time.
and you know i hate to waste time.
-sighs



rant rant rant.

well.i doubt i'll be taking a ministry break for 'o's
i really sure that God will honour this commitment.
i still want to serve him despite the 'o's
(:
well. vann asked again for me to join cell ministry.
it's something i really got to seek and ask God.
cell minstry ain't easy.
you've got to set an example for the people to follow.


alot of things i can't say here. maybe i should change to livejournal.
then i can have private posts
heh.

i think i need to be even more God-centred.
forget what the world things about you.
what for do we need to please this world that comes and goes.
not worth it at all.
you can't please both man and God because they are worlds apart.
like north pole and south pole.

simply simplicity 6:22 PM