i am who i am;

MELISSA
MEL
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ZONE 1
electric guitars
BASE guitars!
singing!
bowling
BVP mammoth(:
DOGs!
FRIENDS((:
CHOCOLATES
COWS
BIOLOGY((:
taking pictures ((:
sunflowers
LIME GREEN
GREEN
black
the crashing sound of waves
the crunching sound of dried leaves
the dark dark sky, with specs of stars*
SMILES
playing in the rain
the way sunnyside ups look. minus the runny yellow part.

hear my heart;


i cringe every time you cut yourself down
you hide your pain like it doesn't count
so when i hear you laugh are you cryin' deep inside
'cause you fall below the standards in your mind
to Him you matter more than you'll ever know
so let the Lord love you

we may search for truth, but we listen more to lies
play them over and over in our minds
till we're left with some distorted point of view
that cripples who we are and all we do there are times you've gotta fight for all you're worth
stand up to the voices from the past
so let the Lord love you

you gotta let the Lord love you

friends i hold dear;

abby
ally
amanda
anne
aretha
audrey
benchew
cassandra
charlene
chloe
clarissa
cordelia
dale
dazzlyn
emeline
genesis
heather
Heda
ian
izza
jiajia
joeyee
joshuachan
joshuacho
keshia
lisa
loretta
lorraine
marian
mel and val
nanxin
nathelie
oswald
rachel
sarah
sherrie
shuhua
soekkhern
tianying
triza
valerie
vanessa
victoria
weiming
weizhen
ziwei

Without no words;


sweet sweet memories of mine;

April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007

Friday, May 25, 2007 -

into your hands i commit again :

passed the baton i have
i wonder how they will fare?

gosh. my report book's out. chinese o's are on monday. :/
and i've been such a avid 'stay -outer' (is there even such a word?)
haiz. coming back to the report book part.
haiz. i got a dreadful 17 points for L1R5 and 13 for L1R2B2
i wonder where that will take me?
but i'll still apply for DSA and DPA.
i hope i'll get a spot somewhere.
but the next question is where?
JC gives you a more cozy environment, whereby people care for one another and all( or so it seems)
whereas poly life is more inclind to helping you face the outside world.
so where do i go?
haiz. i really don't know menn.
to think i still dont have a clear cut idea of where i'm going yet :/
scary.


oh well.was suppose to be in school today at 0730
but i couldn't wake up.
i guess it's because of the late nights i've been having.
oh. today's KC family day.
i'm so going there to have BEN N JERRY'S
YAY!
(((:
cookie dough and strawberry shortcake here i come!!!

SMILES!!!


simply simplicity 6:12 PM



Saturday, May 19, 2007 -

emo-ing :

i guess almost everone has their emo caps on.
including me
i just don't know how to explain how i'm feeling
it's like a cocktail of raw emotion.
hurr, i really can't stand it.
i don't want to feel this way.
but i can't i can't break out of the vicious cycle of emotion.
i can't explain why i feel like that either.
it's so hard to smile or feel happy.
i keep staring into empty space and drift off.
thoughts keep running through my head

well. during cell vann asked if i was okay.
i said yes.
but the truth is that i'm not okay.
but i don't know what is making me not okay.
i don't. i really don't.
i guess after tossing and turning in bed
and thinking about stuff, has made me somewhat better,
but has made me really deprived of sleep.
haiz.




you know i hate you. i hate you for existing.
for treating me so nicely, and giving me the wrong idea.
i guess i also have some fault in it.
hurr. i just hate you.
you know i've already forgotten about you,
until you 'walked' back in again.
oh my.i wished i din know you.


simply simplicity 8:43 PM



Tuesday, May 15, 2007 -

:

boy, the exams are over.
and.. ironically, i've got nothing to do.
lol

well,
i was walking home after shopping and guess what i saw?
menn.
the thing of the century.
can you imagine?

i saw a mother with her child
(well, nothing unusual right?)
but... the mother wasn't holding the child's hand but instead,
like a dog, he was leashed to his mother.
ohmy.
how can?
how can the mother leash him
maybe it is for his own good. but..
i mean...
we shouldn't be bounded like animals are right?
we are given the freedom of choice after all.
tsktsk.
haiz. don't know what the mother's thinking.
lol

alrights
i think i'm going away for some RnR
-smiles.



you know you make my heart beat faster?


simply simplicity 5:09 AM



Sunday, May 13, 2007 -

:


1) i love you guys(:
2) the day the cell went to send jialin to the US.
well.
i guess i'm coping with the blow pretty well.
apart from the frequent heart aches.
makes me think that i'm going to get a heart attack or something.
my head hurts too.
thank God for friends that care.
really makes my day or rather my life (:
heh.
i admit. it ain't easy. but i'll tide thru.
i promise i will.
smiles wide
friends don't worry.
when tears well up
i know who i can't turn too.
and that's all that matters.
i'll be strong.


-loves

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Sunday, May 6, 2007 -

is that still me? :

i guess i was right.
my world is crumbling
i don't know lah.
it just gets so frustrating.
i wish i wish....
oh. forget it.
i will strong
coz i know this is all part of God's plan
to mould me into a person with
FAITH.
faith to move mountains
that i believe.

so God i hope you hear.
though i know you put me through this 'experience'
(so to say) promise you'll never leave me to fend on my own
childish as it may seem.
i need you so much more than ever
though things may change,
i know you love will never.

i'm to busy and frustrated to bother my life with somebody elses
problems anymore.
call it selfish of me as a friend.
but i don't think things can behave like the past.
it's all gone now.
maybe i lost hope in material things
they don't mean anything anymore


no.
i won't show it i promise


simply simplicity 12:24 AM



Friday, May 4, 2007 -

:

maybe i jumped to conclusions a little too early.
good times don't last forever.

i wish i could hit the restart button
and start all over again.
or maybe hit the delete button
and re-write my life all over again.
my world is crumbling bit by bit
i just know it.
i just do.

what i don't see cannot hurt.
what i don't hear cannot cut.
that's the way i think i want things to stay as

trust things to happen a few days before the mid years
it's like a real test of handling my enotions


God, i need you so much more than ever
Don't forsake me.
i beg you


simply simplicity 6:01 AM



Wednesday, May 2, 2007 -

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came across this while clearing my email

nice ain't it.

heehee.



simply simplicity 2:31 AM



Tuesday, May 1, 2007 -

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1st pic: the cell then(:
2nd pic: the cell now((:
blogging twice in a day
heehee.
yep
that's my cell((:
loves menn.
the people that make my week.
HEEHEE.
i can't wait to really get my cam working
*smiles*
i'm sure the many of yall know why
hee.
when all seems vague,
it's him that sets me and the right path.


simply simplicity 5:00 AM