Friday, May 25, 2007
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into your hands i commit again
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passed the baton i have
i wonder how they will fare?
gosh. my report book's out. chinese o's are on monday. :/
and i've been such a avid 'stay -outer' (is there even such a word?)
haiz. coming back to the report book part.
haiz. i got a dreadful 17 points for L1R5 and 13 for L1R2B2
i wonder where that will take me?
but i'll still apply for DSA and DPA.
i hope i'll get a spot somewhere.
but the next question is where?
JC gives you a more cozy environment, whereby people care for one another and all( or so it seems)
whereas poly life is more inclind to helping you face the outside world.
so where do i go?
haiz. i really don't know menn.
to think i still dont have a clear cut idea of where i'm going yet :/
scary.
oh well.was suppose to be in school today at 0730
but i couldn't wake up.
i guess it's because of the late nights i've been having.
oh. today's KC family day.
i'm so going there to have BEN N JERRY'S
YAY!
(((:
cookie dough and strawberry shortcake here i come!!!
SMILES!!!
simply simplicity 6:12 PM
Saturday, May 19, 2007
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emo-ing
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i guess almost everone has their emo caps on.
including me
i just don't know how to explain how i'm feeling
it's like a cocktail of raw emotion.
hurr, i really can't stand it.
i don't want to feel this way.
but i can't i can't break out of the vicious cycle of emotion.
i can't explain why i feel like that either.
it's so hard to smile or feel happy.
i keep staring into empty space and drift off.
thoughts keep running through my head
well. during cell vann asked if i was okay.
i said yes.
but the truth is that i'm not okay.
but i don't know what is making me not okay.
i don't. i really don't.
i guess after tossing and turning in bed
and thinking about stuff, has made me somewhat better,
but has made me really deprived of sleep.
haiz.
you know i hate you. i hate you for existing.for treating me so nicely, and giving me the wrong idea. i guess i also have some fault in it.hurr. i just hate you. you know i've already forgotten about you,until you 'walked' back in again.oh my.i wished i din know you.
simply simplicity 8:43 PM