Wednesday, June 13, 2007
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did you make it this way?
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i feel like as though i made myself ride on a roller coaster with many many rises and drops.
nobody forced me to, nobody dared me to.
i just got on board it myself.
(if you get what i'm driving at.)
boy are my days getting tougher.
but it feels as if i made it tougher myself,
creating unecessary waves in my life.
talk about making my life more 'interesting'.
don't ask me to expain, because i myself can't either.
what's wrong with me?
to tell you the truth, i don't know either
i'm letting the days pass, not making them count,
staring aimlessly into space.
maybe it's time to give up,
to give up waiting.
you should to.
maybe i'm relying too much on my own strength.
it's alway been a weakness the leaches on me, like a parasite.
leaders camp made me question.
how? how do i let go and let God?
it's so easy to say but do i put it into action.
do i really have the faith to let God's will be done in my life and not mine?
or do i only rely on him in bad times and in the good times He's far from near.
when i encourage people,
were those encouragements actually meant for me?
ironic.
why am i running away from God?
simply simplicity 9:59 AM
